For Justin...........

Today is Sunday Feb. 6th. almost 3 oclock in the afternoon. John and I have been preparing "superbowl" food all day. I am not a big football fan, but I am a fan of John so in essence-I cheer for him. This is the only time of year that he watches tv regulary and now that Nate is pursuing being a football coach-football is a regular word in our home everyday!

Megan and Amanda went out together last night. Although we hesitated, we knew that they were safe and the group of freinds that surrounds them is a good bunch of kids. Megan is stronger than she belives she is sometimes. She was very dissapointed and hurt by her dad that promised to protect her. Kevin Sr. lied and it was a crushing moment for Megan because Meg stood by him. Her father only was loyal to himself at the price of continued betrayal of those of us that love/loved him. In a good way, Megan has realized who really respects and loves her versuses the one who only loved her with conditions. So, in spite of all of this, Megan has a strong, smart head on her shoulders.

I will be making another video for Bogey today. I will not stop trying to send a message to him. Bogey is my baby and I have so many stories that I have told him and will continue to tell him. Like his favorite book...Goodnite Moon, or his favorite movie-Toy Story. Favorite meal is spaghetti with Italian sausage, pepperoni and parmesan cheese. Favorite stuffed animal was a monkey that had the name "Bogey" on the t-shirt. Bogey loved to fart with his knees and learned how to ride a bike all by himself and so many more memories that I hold close to me like the day you were born, your first step, first word.... I find it interesting that my current videos were deleted from Youtube. The message is clear-Kevin Sr. does not want anyone to know the truth but it is too late now. My purpose is not to destroy Kevin Sr. but to reach my son Bogey. So, anyone that reads this that knows my son Bogey-tell him we love him and we will continue to try to reach him regardless of the lies being told. The truth of the past and present cannot live in a pool of dirt, mold and lies.

Bogey Landers-read this and know that as much as your dad and Melody try to threaten to take things away from you, bribe you with figts, or degrade you for even thinking about me or your siblings-we are not going to give up. We love you Justin. You can call me anytime at 484-885-2443. The number is a free number. You can also reach me at tammany.girl@gmail.com or your sister Megan at nagem3@yahoo.com and Amanda at amandalanders15@yahoo.com Your brother Kevin has an email and cell phone number as well. Do NOT be afraid to contact any of us.

I still struggle on what to write in this blog as I have so much to say, but my mind always trails to Bogey.
Kevin, Megan and Amanda are safe but my Bogey??? From accounts, Bogey's siblings have shared, he needs me- and his siblings- more than ever. This is all for now-
Happy Super-Bowl Sunday 2011!!!