Mom of Justin Landers

I would like to address some issues here. It has been brought to my attention that Melody Landers has posted some very cruel things about me and John once again. All of our friends and family know that Kevin and Melody tried this tactic last year with John’s upcoming 30^th class reunion. Out of the blue, a fake Facebook was created by Melody and Kevin and they went on a smear campaign. Today, it was brought to my attention that Melody had posted written attacks about me and John in the San Miguel de Allende Civil List (kind of an internet local social/informational page).  Melody has also created a “counter blog” in an attempt to discredit me…a blog that I refuse to read.  Friends contact me concerning Melody’s blog and it is the same ‘ole lies on a different day. Unbeknown to me, people that I know me here in Mexico, had Melody removed from these sites because of her “defamation of character”. The way I see it, neither Melody nor Kevin have any credence anywhere anymore. These are the 2 people that sought a restraining order because they “fear me”???

People are sick and tired of Kevin and Melody.  I also have kept some comments on my blog that are mean. I quote “you are a sick woman”. Part of this comment is true. I WAS a sick woman to stay with Kevin as long as I did. However, I have grown so much since I chose to leave him. I am going to keep this comment up as it reminds me that although I speak truth, I will always have people that will judge me by others opinions of me. If that is the case, then the ones that judge me without ‘knowing” me do not deserve to know me at all. People that believe gossip (as John Baker defines it - “Hearing something you like…about someone you don’t like”) are weak and cowards. I will forever stand tall knowing that I have never judged anyone by another’s voice (I want my Army wives in CO and TN to remember this).

Having said this I want to switch my focus off of me for a moment.

My son Justin Landers has been heavy on my heart. I don’t know why. It could be nothing, or maybe it is more than I think it is, but something is wrong. I feel sadness from him. You know how “mom’s” have those instincts about their kids? I feel Justin very strongly.  He is becoming a young man now. It is hard for me to think of my baby boy as a young man.  I should be there with him. His older siblings should be with him now. I struggle with trying to understand WHY his father refuses Justin to have contact with his big brother and sister. Any of you out there that have been following my Blog know the story as to why my 4 children were ripped apart from me and from each other. For those of you that don’t, read my prior entries.

Justin is the youngest. He was 8 years old when he was forced to return to his father and Melody. He truly has been used by Kevin and Melody. To all of my followers and to all my critics, let me ask you this one question, “Why has Justin not been allowed to speak to his 3 older siblings in 6 years?” I know that he talks to Amanda now but the only reason for this is because Amanda has been instructed by Kevin and Melody that if Amanda talks to me, then she will not be allowed to talk to Justin and they will stop supporting her efforts to live outside my home. Amanda has agreed to speak against me for money. Justin has not talked, hugged nor communicated with his big brother Kevin or his big sister Megan in 6 years. WHY? Is there really any logical reason for this? I know that Kevin and Melody say that they are trying to protect him from me. That they feel like Justin is better off without the insanity. But honestly, “What are Kevin and Melody trying to hide?” I can understand the plot for Justin not talking to me, but his siblings? My son wants contact with me. He “smuggled” a written note to me through Amanda…How sad. Kevin and Melody told the court on March 19, 2012 that Justin is dealing with anger issues and it is because I stalk the family and harass Kevin, Melody and Melody’s adult son. Lies, Lies, Lies. It has been said by Melody and Justin’s Father that I have created Justin’s anger by this blog and videos. Some may buy into this, but do Kevin and Melody really think that society is naïve and dumb? Justin is angry because his entire life was ripped from him. His mom was shut out; His brother has been shut out; His sister has been shut out; And the only reason why Amanda is able to talk to him is because she agreed to make false statements against me (which authorities found to be lies and refer to Amanda as a spoiled brat). It concerns me that my 17 year old Amanda willingly sells her character for a price-SAD. How can two grown adults, Kevin Sr. and Melody, think that this control over a child is ok for him? And now ok for Amanda. They want to protect Justin? Protect him from what? From Justin’s sibling’s? From Justin’s mother that loves’s him and desires to communicate with him? Justin has been a hostage and his anger runs deep.  I miss my son of course, but I hurt for my other children that have been denied the right to have contact with their brother. Justin has anger issues? I think so. His entire life has been hidden from him. He is not allowed to speak my name or his sibling’s name’s. He is being told to accept the fact that he has a step brother Kyle and that is it. Justin wants Kevin Jr. for a brother as well. Yet KJ is not allowed to be in Justin’s life. His brother Kevin Jr. loves Bogey. Now, anyone out there that doubts what I say PLEASE think logically about this. Where are the other children? And if you are able to ask this question of Melody and Kevin, pay attention.  The only way that Kevin Jr. and Megan will be able to have contact with their brother Justin is if they agree with Amanda. Agree that their father never beat me. Agree that their father never treated them or me hateful. Agree that Melody never mistreated Megan and Amanda. I want all of my children to be in contact with their father, but they should not be forced to lie in order to receive his “support”. Amanda has been willing to do “any and everything” to get what she wants. To be in their fathers favor, they must profess their hate for me. I would never put conditions on my children. I want them to love their father. I want them to have a “honest” relationship with me and their father.  I have always encouraged my kids to have contact with both of us. Kevin and I were the ones that screwed up, not the children. So why do these children have to “pay a penalty” to have a relationship with each other.  Justin needs his family. He needs his siblings. The siblings that he grew up with. The one’s that love him. The one’s that miss him. Justin deserves a better life than the one he has. Do Kevin and Melody really think that Justin does not lie in bed at night and think about his mom; His brother; His sisters? I can be all of the things that Kevin and Melody say I am or I can be none of the things they say I am, but why hold a child hostage from the family he used to know? I have haters out there and that is ok with me. But let me ask the ones that point fingers at me, “If you really care about the children, then look at what is logical. Why has Justin been denied to talk to his family? Why can’t Justin talk to his big brother or sister? Do all of us have poison in our hearts to try to alienate Kevin and Melody?” Or “Are Kevin and Melody paranoid because they have too much to hide?”

Justin is 15 ½ years old now. He is becoming a young man. When is all this hate going to stop? And why does Justin have to carry the burden of being the child that is held captive? Justin has friends and it is only a matter of time before Justin develops his own freedoms. My suggestion to Kevin and Melody is this, if you want some of the children to love you and not “use you” as Amanda has voiced publically, then stop using Justin as a tool for your control. Megan finally left. Kevin left. Amanda left. Justin is sure to be next.  Justin may also choose to come to me and I promise that I will not engrave the hate in his mind against you that you have tried to do against me and his siblings. 

Justin-if you are reading this or if your friends are reading this-PLEASE listen to me. I love you. I remember every moment you and I shared together. You loved that I sang (twinkle little star) to you before you went to bed. Your favorite book was “Go Away Big Green Monster”…you loved honey buns and spaghetti with pepperoni, Italian sausage, and cheese. You love music and skateboarding. You love your big brother Kevin and your sisters. I know you and I love you and no matter what has been told about me-I am your mom and I never left you. I left the abuse. Justin-please seek out your brother Kevin and your sister Megan. They are older and can give you guidance. They choose truth over having to lie to gain superficial items like money, cars, or fake love. We love you Justin Ryan Landers and when you can, reach out to us. We have facebooks, twitters and emails. You know how to find us. We are here and will wait for you to find your way to the family you knew for 8 years.

It is good to feel lost... because it proves you have a navigational sense of where "Home" is. You know that a place that feels like being found exists. And maybe your current location isn't that place but, Hallelujah, that unsettled, uneasy feeling of lost-ness just brought you closer to it. ~Erika Harris

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