“I see you looking at me. How does it feel to see everyone looking at you?
You think you can hide behind the law in the corruption you persue?
You think its ok to justify your actions
when the 5 souls you wanted
may not give you the satisfaction?
The pain you went through to hold each child was only a selfish act
to put on display as you pat yourself on the back
The time you spend on your days
Of "Hey look at me" when all the world can see
an evil soul that only desires praise.
You think you are a victor and you keep winning "the game" but,
you think its worth winning if the kids feel the pain?
You think you're victorious with all your lies that remain
but who will be the victor when your kids
put you to shame?
The shame you deserve for creating a world full of lies
I hope you are prepared for their last goodbyes
For the time is coming sooner than you think
for you and your brother to drown in "your stink"
Because children become adults with minds of their own
and each day you lie turns their hearts more to stone
The control you possess is a short time coming,
for the children I do believe
will walk away running.
Time will always pass and no one can stop the memories
for I do know that your kids will be on journey’s,
To find the truth from the man they loved,
who is a loving father that won't give up.
You know that man that dried your tears?
A man you were married to for 20 years.
A Godly man with patience and grace
that stood by your side and gave you your space
To pursue your antics on your little flings,
of excessive shopping, girls trips- amongst other things.
A man who supported you through every endeavor
As you squashed his heart with your lies and behavior.
That’s right, I know all about who you really are
from the present and your past
And I despise your false appearance that isn’t going to last.
I’ll never forget the day you shaved my son’s head,
Out of hate for me and a wish I were dead,
As I held my son crying confused as to why his aunt was so mean,
I tried to find the comforting words to a little boy who was now put in between
A hateful game you and your brother had started to scheme.
My son will never forget that day when you shaved away his identity,
A cute, innocent child that now viewed you as the enemy.
I realized right then that you did not have a loving soul,
For a mother to hurt a child is an action so cold
For your antics towards John and ploys to try to smother
Is such a classic action of a liar-you’re just like your brother.
When will you realize that your children will get older,
their inquires of their father are going to be bolder
For you cannot censor the world from telling the truth,
even though you robbed your kids of their youth.
The world doesn’t like when adults hurt “the children”
An act that if continued may never be forgiven.
So, continue the bully mentality that runs in the family,
For souls like you are never happy.
This is why we left you and the other,
An evil man I call your brother.
I pray that God deals with you firmly
and the punishment he serves will be justly.
Meanwhile I and your children’s father will be ok
for we already paid the price we had to pay.
I stand firm and strong for I don't fear you bully's any longer
You keep pushing at us-we only get stronger.
No matter your lies in the courts or the cause,
I'll continue to pray for a peaceful close.
To all this hate for the sake of the kids,
for don’t the children deserve all the love we can give?”
You may think you can make your kids believe their Dad's the enemy
But not even you can wipe away memories
Memories your kids hold deep in their minds
Of a daddy who was funny, loving and kind
With each action you take against their loving dad,
Only shows your weakness to hide all YOUR bad.
Teaching a child to hate makes God very upset
An action I know you are going to regret.
So for now I have once again used my voice
For a man I love who doesn’t have a choice
Because of your hate and fear of exposure
I will continue to speak out until I get closure
I won’t give up~Catherine Ann Landers
“But if you give them a hard time, bullying or taking advantage of their simple trust, you’ll soon wish you hadn’t. You’d be better off dropped in the middle of the lake with a millstone around your neck. Doom to the world for giving these God-believing children a hard time! Hard times are inevitable, but you don’t have to make it worse—and it’s doomsday to you if you do." Matthew 8:16
I am so sorry you and your children are dealing with this type of behavior. I know about it first hand myself. Thankfully, I am free of it. the scars remain, but for seven long years after I left my ex-husband, I endured anger, lies, and much more. Dong the right thing and being honest doesn't always mean other people will do the same. My children are now grown up, and have no family other than my family (who do not live close to us) and they have me. They saw and were subjected to things no child should ever be subjected to, and then again through their father's family. I was "punished" through a dishonest lawyer and the court system, lost everything from a 30 year marriage and then was ordered to pay him (the abuser) alimony. I am sorry for you, and one thing I learned is that people such as what you are dealing with, actually enjoy the conflict and turmoil they create. No matter what you do or say, they will continue to try to hurt you. The best thing is to not even bother trying to explain yourself, I wasted too much time thinking reason would prevail, but it never did. Not until my ex-husband passed away did it stop. I wish you the best. Laurie E
ReplyDeleteLaurie,
DeleteThank you for such kind words and sharing your wisdom. John and I share 9 children together and our ex's do not care how their actions affect the children. In their sick minds, they think they are punishing us with their lies and manipulations, but the ONLY true souls being punished are the children. I agree with you-as much as I thought speaking out and trying to bring all this hate into the light, our ex's will continue to try to alienate us for fear that for one their lies will be exposed and two, they fear the children will love us even after their ploys to teach the children to hate us. I have wracked my brain wishing someone with authority would step in and stop these hateful adults who continue to abuse these kids. My 4 children are young adults now but they have emotional scars from all of this. John's 4 younger children's mother does not see the emotional damage she has inflicted on her children. I still pray that there will be an intervention of some type to stop the damage, but I don't see it anytime soon. Your story is very similar to mine so you understand the daily hurt, frustration and battles I face trying to stop all of this. I'm learning real fast that just because we are loving parents-we can't expect “them” to be. My ex's family has nothing to do with my children because they love me, and my family loves my children but they really don't want to get involved. So as you said-our children’s family ties they deserve are forever broken. No grandparents, scarce cousins, aunts, uncles, and lost time because of people who CHOOSE to hate more than they want to love.
I have accepted that as long as my ex walks on this earth, he will forever go out of his way to make my life and our children’s lives a living hell because he has a need to be in control.
Once again-I admire you and I am so grateful for your words. God bless you and your children.