My son Justin is a young man now....

  I would like to thank my friends and family for continuing in sharing pictures of my son J as he continues to grow into a handsome young man. He will be turning 18 in 17 months. He is not a little boy anymore and will finally be able to choose his own paths. I know that 18 is not a magic number.One thing that resinates in my memory is when I would try to have contact with my children, Kevin Sr's classic phrase with sarcasm was-

"Not until they're 18"

My 3 older children have turned 18 and I have a relationship with each of them. Our relationships may not be perfect but not one is. We all go through seasons.

Having said that-J knows how to contact me as he chooses. I want him to know that he can have a relationship with whomever he chooses. I never have and never will manipulate my children to pick sides. I truly want my kids to be happy even if that means I have to allow them to do what they need to do whether me, their father or others are a part of their plans or endeavors or not. We are suppose to raise our children to want to create their own lives as grown adults. Children should be able to rely on parents, family members and friends to support and love them. To not be afraid of relationships or anger from parents who still want to control them. Chilren need their father and mother to focus more on raising them to be productive, confident, loving human beings. Not angry, beaten down, lonely souls that are afraid to love themselves or others.

I just finished reading a story in the Bible. Its in the book of Kings. Its about 2 women that are fighting over a baby. Both were claiming that the living baby was theirs and this is what wise Solomon decided....

²⁴ After a moment the king said, “Bring me a sword.” They brought the sword to the king.

²⁵ Then he said, “Cut the living baby in two—give half to one and half to the other.”

²⁶ The real mother of the living baby was overcome with emotion for her son and said, “Oh no, master! Give her the whole baby alive; don’t kill him!”
But the other one said, “If I can’t have him, you can’t have him—cut away!”

²⁷ The king gave his decision: “Give the living baby to the first woman. Nobody is going to kill this baby. She is the real mother."  

Reading this story couldn't have come at a better time. I have not ask my kids to hate their father, step-mother, paternal grandparents, or any people that I have challenges with. I do believe that we as human beings have the God given right to use our voices and emotions to
express how we feel. But, it is wrong for any of us to use innocent children as pawns to help spew our hate and venom. Its even more wrong to try to teach a child to hate another especially a loving parent. God does not condone this behaivor.

I am not perfect nor have I claimed to be. I have made mistakes but there is one thing that I stand by with full conviction.
             "I am the real mother"
I love my children and I want them to be safe and happy no matter what, how, or who they choose to love.
K. M and A have heard me speak these words many times. I am posting this so that Justin can understand my stance in all this insanity.

JRL-It's going to be ok. Your brother, sisters and I love you no matter what. I have not degraded you publically or made fun of you. I know that you "see" the people around you. Be at peace and know that I love you the same as the day you were born.
I am your mother and no one can ever change that.
A told me once that when she sang this song-you cried because I sang this song to you every night. This ones for you son.
Hoops and Yoyo eCards - Twinkle Twinkle

 Justin's looks are 100% Seebauer. He looks so much like his Papa Seebauer and his Uncle Matt.

 We smile exactly alike

 Justin and Amanda were able to see each other in the summer of 2012. Wonderful!

 J loved to go fishing every summer at my parents home in Mountain Home. Ar. My father would rent a boat and we would be out on the lake all day. Great memories.
J has always been a dare devil. He had no fear and tried to keep up with his big brother skateboarding, biking, rollerbladeing, J was the fastest runner on the block.

 J has a huge love of animals. Hey Justy-at one time do remember that we had Izzy the iguana, 2 tree frogs, Herby the hermit crap, 2 guinea pigs, Belly and Oliver the dogs, fish, and Coco the ferret? We moved alot with your dad being military but I really wanted you and your siblings to have somewhat of a farm life like I did growing up. Never a dull moment in our home! :)

 J has a sense of humor. However, he would drive your brother Kevin crazy with all his "bodily function" jokes. We were always laughing when you were in the room.