Blog deletions....

Per my children's request, I have removed their names from my blog. Although they were a part of my life with my ex husband LTC. Kevin Paul Landers, they prefer that I not use their names publicly anymore. I can understand and will honor their request.
I, however, will not stop using my ex’s name or his wife Melody's. I have been told by colleagues, supporters, survivors and my Colorado lawyer to NEVER stop writing in my blog. Let me explain one of the many reasons why.

When I was served with court documents last year on a Friday by Kevin and Melody-I was shocked. Up to this point, I had not had contact with them nor any communications what so ever in years. I knew it had something to do with my blog. I read the documents and Monday was a USA holiday and my hearing was on a Tuesday. There was no way I was going to able to fly to Colorado, nor find legal counsel over the Labor Day weekend. It was all a game to them. I later found out that they were worried that if I received enough notice, I would have time to find a lawyer and expose them and their 5inch or wait now I think it's a claimed 6 inch binder of lies. I have to honestly say that I was very stressed about this. You see, not only were Kevin and Melody saying that I threatened them but now they were saying that I was cyber-stalking them. Conveniently for them, the laws on cyber-stalking in El Paso County had changed. If you were proven to be a cyber-stalker then you could serve up to 5 years in prison. With my experience in the legal system in the past, I was worried. But, John and I did what we always do together. We tackled the problem and started working feverishly to find someone that could help us. John started making contact with attorneys and I was shooting out emails as fast as I could to lawyers in Colorado. I did get quite a few responses but one lawyer in particular caught my attention. The other lawyers were looking for a payment before understanding the situation. I was ready to dig into my resources but I never had to do that. You see, when I was shooting out emails, I also attached a link to my blog so that the law firms could read my story at their convenience. I figured it would save them and me time because the court date was approaching. I could tell that some of the lawyers wanted the money but had not read my blog...except for one admirable, honest, considerate man. He did become my Guardian angel in all of this consistent, hateful turmoil.

This lawyer called me directly and told me that he took time to review my blog entries, my background and the accusations against me. He is infamous in domestic violence cases and he told me that Kevin was a classic abuser that tries to manipulate the courts with his money, rank and lies. This particular lawyer was not buying Kevin and Melody’s claims. He told me that he would take my case but it was going to cost me a lot of money, time and stress. After reading my blog, he knew I did not want to invest any of those things so he suggested I just concede “not to have contact with ‘the abuser’ and his wife” and told me not worry about all the accusations because they were not justified.  He also told me that if I ever decided that I wanted to peruse Kevin in court that he would be more than happy to get a hold of a man like Kevin. His exact words,

“Your ex thinks he’s a Georgia bulldog, but if we choose to prosecute him, I will be more than happy to bounce Mr. Landers around the court like the scrawny puppy he is.”  

I was shocked at his words and vigor towards my ex and I was relieved that someone of authority believed me. If one legal representative believes me, then I knew that Kevin and Melody did not have a leg to stand on with their 5 inch binder.
Trust me-I seriously thought about taking Kevin to court but I was tired of the fighting. I just wanted the freedom to tell my story after keeping silent from 2005-2011. After 6 years of answering questions from person’s that had been contacted by Kevin and Melody, I decided to “Blog” the truth and allow others to read my account if they chose – it worked. MY focus is on my loving relationship with John. Between Kevin and Kelly, we had been through enough already. I was not nor will I allow anyone to destroy the solid relationship John and I have worked hard for and deserve. Nothing or anyone will penetrate our happiness. I won’t have it. So, I asked my pro bono lawyer if I should worry about the accusations by Kevin and Melody that I was a felon and that I was going to prison for cyber- stalking. He told me flat out-“No.” My lawyer told me that if not for my blog, others including the courts would not have known my version of my life with Kevin. He also told me that I have NO felony charges or warrants against me. I conceded to do what I have been doing all along…“NOT have contact with Lt. Col. Kevin Paul Landers, Sr. NOR with his wife, Melody Morrison Wilson Landers” therefore, I have no record. I am a free woman.  My lawyer gave me some advice. He told me to NEVER stop writing in my blog no matter what Kevin nor Melody say or claim.  My lawyer firmly had me agree to his words-"
"Do NOT let them intimidate or bully you. That is what they are trying to do."
  
 It is my right as a US citizen under the amendments to use my voice. I am not writing tabloids or fake stories about celebrities. All of which happens every day and they get away with all the lies. The tabloid writers are not felons or cyber-stalkers. They are using their freedom of speech. However, I am not like them trying to gain money or fame from a fake tabloid. I am just a woman who survived domestic violence and am choosing to write my story in efforts to dilute the lies told by Kevin and Melody concerning me. Choose who you want to believe. I can easily claim publically that Kevin and Melody are felons, drug addicts, and child abusers running from the law just as they claim about me every day. They don’t scare me and I am not listening to their lies and threats any longer.  During Melody and Kevin’s ongoing efforts to convince others that I am a bully, cyber-stalker and cruel person, they in essence have exposed their selves as the one’s who stalk and cannot let go. “18” is finally close, and the accusations about me will continue until the abusers rest.
I know the truth. They know the truth. So, I am not worried any longer about accusations or threats by them.  My right is to tell my story and it’s my followers right to read as they please and to choose who they want to believe.

I am still amazed however at how Kevin and Melody still try to use the children to do their dirty work. I have never asked my children to fight my battles for me. They are innocent victims from a horrible marriage that ended with Kevin Sr. still trying to manipulate and bully them because he’s afraid of what I have to say. Just like my lawyer told me.

“These abusers will go to any lengths to hide their abuses. Be ready, because he will never stop trying to control you or your children”

How I prayed he was wrong, but with Kevin’s behavior, I now know that my lawyer knows what he’s talking about. It is very unfortunate that Kevin has a chance to “rectify” his relationship with his children and he turns around and still continues to ask them to try to keep me, their mom, quiet “or else”. He is and always will be a disappointment as a father, husband, soldier and human being. As a US citizen, I have the right to claim this and write it.
So, ending with this-

For the sake of my now adult children, I will no longer post their names via the web per their request. I do appreciate their inputs and I do seriously consider how it affects them and their lives today. Everyone knows who we are. I will however, NEVER stop writing in my blog. It is a blog of truth that any consenting adult can choose to read, believe or ignore. If my ex and his wife do not like what I have to say, then they need not read it. I am not shoving my blog down anyone’s throat so Kevin and Melody need to stop reading, stop monitoring and stop stalking me and my postings otherwise they are shoving my story down their own throats and choking on them. Their choice as US citizens is to click on Catherine Landers Recreating Myself or ignore it. Period.

So as I stand here today looking forward to tomorrow and my choice to live peacefully, happy and yes FREE, I am sharing with all of you and the ones who are choosing to read this entry right now. If you do not like what I have to say, then please do not come back to this blog but my blog will always be active and I will never stop using the voice God intended for me to have... It is your choice/your freedom just as I have done, to embrace me and my Blog or not. I do welcome as always, opinions, comments and insights. Please comment here or for privacy send me an email.

“I am free because I think and write” 
~Mexican proverb

REST…REGROUP…RETURN